I am ok....

I know I haven't been persistent with the blogging the last few days. I have had life issues that just took precedence.
Kids are back to school. Katie loves her teacher (she loves everyone really) and is enjoying the whole school atmosphere.
Jeff already had homework for his Honors World History - he has to read 65 pages before Wednesday. His schedule is real weird. He has A & B days. M,W,F are A days and T&Th are B days. His Aerospace Engineering class just blows my mind. The topics that they are going to review is incredible.
Britt found out that she only has to put 12 hours a week at the vocational school in the GED class so she wants to go M-W from 8-12. Chris told her for this week she needs to go everyday and he will be speaking with the instructor. Not sure if she is just saying that or not. But Chris wants to check it out first. She did score College level on her pre test. She has orientation for her new job tomorrow at 3:30.

I have been having thoughts of going to school myself. I want to be doing something I really like doing. I like my job but when you are promised a raise at your last review over a year ago and told that it is also retroactive but still have not gotten that raise it makes me think that I am not really that valuable. My third year anniversary was August 17th. My self esteem has been low for a while now and it's time I make some changes in my life.

I haven't been the easiest person to live with for quite some time now and Chris is getting fed up. Not a good situation. He loves me but when someone is constantly down all the time it takes it toll on the people you love. So.... I have taken some time to do a lot of soul searching. I am going to be restructuring the way I do things and really get my life back on track. I have let myself go and right now I don't like who I am. I can't even stand to look in the mirror anymore nor do I like having my picture taken. I have lost interest in a lot of things that use to matter to me and I don't like that. I know everyone gets depressed but I feel like I have gone beyond that.

SICK!!!!

I hate this.. I have been fighting this "bug" for a few weeks now and my body just gave in. So.. I am slowly getting better. Yesterday I stayed home from work. Trying to get through my day here at work now. I'll be back on later.

10 days and counting...

until the hustle and bustle of waking everyone up early in the morning for school. Jeff and I picked up his schedule today. I can't believe he is a junior. Where the hell does the time go? My baby will be in first grade and we have Brittany that is forgoing high school and getting her GED before she turns 18 in October.
I was looking over Jeff's schedule and OMG is he going to be busy this year. Honors Algebra 2, Honors Chemistry, Dual Enrollment English and AP Honors World History. Not to mention Orchestra and an Aerospace Engineering class. Jeff says that he will be building a rocket in that class. Great.... just what I needed to hear.

Hump Day

When I was much, much, much younger I used to giggle when I heard an adult use that term. Not that I am older I am understanding the true meaning of why we call Wednesdays, Hump Day.
I have a vision in my mind that when we all begrudgingly go back to work on Monday mornings it's almost like we have to climb a imaginary hill to make it to the end of the week. It is only when Wednesday comes around that I get the feeling that I have "made it" to the middle of the week and the last two days is like running downhill, like the week will be over faster.

I am not quite sure why I think like that because to be honest with you my work days are not that hard to muddle through. My weekends however are the hard days. That's when all the little necessities that have been ignored all week need my attention. I think it is definitely time for a lifestyle overhaul. I need to find a way to muster the energy needed after putting in a nine hour workday to come home and take care of what's needed so that I can start enjoying my weekends and not dreading the impending doom.

And with school starting in less than two weeks... we all have to get into the early morning routines and establish the organization that my kids have tossed into the wind on the last day of school only a few short months ago. I am already exhausted just thinking about it.

I would like other's take on how they keep the organization flowing... short cuts taken and what not.

Check it Out!!!

I have been working my butt off ( got more butt to go) but I am finally making a huge dent in getting all the products on Regal Boutique.com so please visit so I haven't done this in vain:)

Remember we are still participating in with Kat's charity of choice until August 15th so get off your lazy butts and help out this great cause!

I wish...

I was not so freakin sensitive about every little thing.
I wasn't so much of a worrier so I could actually get one night of decent sleep.
I could communicate better with Chris so that every time I say something he doesn't misconstrude it as something else.
My children knew just how much I really love them.
I could be a SAHM and also make a contribution to the household income.
My life wasn't starting to feel like a rut with no path or purpose.

Where did July go?

It's August 1st? Why the hell is time going by so fast?
The kids will be going back to school on August 20th and I haven't done any shopping for them! Katie needs a haircut. Poor girl has my thick hair (picture a lions mane) and she doesn't want her hair short. She also needs new clothes. While I am thinking about it so does Jeff.
Brittany will be registering on August 20th to take her GED courses so she can prepare for her GED and then go on to take the courses she wants to become an Aesthetician.
So all in all this will be another busy month for this household! OY