Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I am so happy

The past few days I have been experiencing a sense of euphoric high. Nothing has really gotten me down. Not even the whole incident with the studio fiasco. I may have gotten angry at the situation but I didn't let that affect my mood. In the end it will all work out. And no, my bank account has not shown the reversal yet. I will give it until tomorrow morning to go into effect. If it doesn't than I will call them again and this time let them have it. The bank rep informed us that if they do not comply within the stated time that they said, then they are in wrong and can be charged with a felony fraud count. So… we shall see.

Even though today has been kind of a wash out due to the terrific thunderstorms we are having, I have kept busy with school work, cleaning house and even playing with Katie. My kids have noticed the difference in my mood. Jeff jokingly asked if I was taking any sort of mood enhancer because I have not been happy for this long period of time. Geez… that's a real eye opener! I am so glad that all the crap that I have been carrying for most of my life has surfaced, and that there is no way in hell I will ever retreat to that dark place again. With that said, I am moving on.

For the past few weeks now, Chris and I have discussed about what I am going to do once the kids returned back to school. I would like to start working again. However, the jobs are not there. So, I decided and also talked it over with Chris that I am going to start cleaning for other people again. I haven't done it in over 10 years but I do have the knowledge, the experience and the drive to do it. After a lot of research and putting together a business plan along with a three year business forecast. I am going into business for myself. Not quite sure on the name but Chris did mention that I use the name of my blog. Sort of a play on words approach. What do you guys think? You have any suggestions? I have already gotten the paperwork to become licensed, insured and bonded. This will be a sole proprietorship and if I do allow anyone to work with me they will be sub contractors only. I am not going to deal with their taxes and what not. I have already put the buzz out. My parents are in the field of either managing or in the maintenance part of high end condo associations on Siesta Key and Longboat Key. Many of the condo owners have expressed interest. Apparently they are not happy with their services now. That sounds promising. However, I will not start until the kids are back in school. So in another four weeks I am looking to venture out. I do want to have all the necessary paperwork dealt with by then also.

Getting back into the cleaning business will not only help with the bringing in of extra income but it will get me to lose the weight a lot faster. I won't have to rely on diet supplements like that of Fenphedra or anything else like it to help me lose weight. I am a firm believer that the longer it takes you to lose the weight the longer it will stay off. No more yo - yo dieting for me. I have put my body through enough stress.

Chris and I have been very attentive towards one another and we have not had any arguments. Not to say we haven't had disagreements because no relationship is perfect. I have noticed that he responds to me differently than before. My kids even treat me differently. I am just so amazed that I couldn't see how I was affecting my family. I can't say that I won't have bad days but it will be short lived because I will be aware of it. Chris promised me that he would be the first one to let me know when I start down the wrong road again. I am so grateful that I have him to lean on. I don't think anyone else would have had the patience and I don't think I would want anyone else to do it. I think that is what God intended. I see it so clearly.



Kat said...

It's a good thing to figure out what's been bugging us for a long time, and then taking the action needed to turn it around.

It's good to hear you be happy. :)

Mindy said...

Kat - I can't believe that it took me this long to "figure it out" but I have and that's in the past. There is nowhere to go but up! :)